The Landscape of my Life

I became aware of a growing schism in myself. I suppose there are millions of us this very moment in the same pain. Recently, someone asked me about my worst fears. I came up with a few all in regards to my children. And they all related to the future and my lack of control thereof. But I didn’t dare voice them in fear they would magically manifest. So Instead, I decided to reroute my thoughts and their destinations.
I decided to go outside. I didn’t tell anyone and I didn’t bring my cellphone. I started walking until I no longer knew the road like the palm of my hand.

Because I walk the same road day in and day out, I could no longer see.  I realized I’ve taught my muscles to work without thinking. And I was doing the same with my thoughts.  Suddenly, I start to notice.  I start to hear the silence.  So much is being said in the silence.  I didn’t want to get anything out of it except the silence.

I just walk, breath in the sights and finally decide to sit down and just Be.  The birds are chirping in an otherwise quiet alley totally void of noise.  They seem to be recording everything.  In the far distance, lies the majestic ocean, too far to hear its waves crashing into shore.  The quiet is delightful and yet I can hear the hands on my mechanical wrist watch incessantly ticking in an endless repetition of tick-tocks.  Is this my life ticking away?  I think to myself I need to be productive, active, be doing something.  Why am I just sitting as if confined to a wheelchair?

The ticking sound brings my attention back to my watch. The dial sitting on top of the movement grabs my attention.  It’s one of the most important ways of giving a watch its own distinctive personality.  I surmise it’s the same with people.  Our faces, through our eyes, are the mirrors to our soul.  There’s a universal truth, across time, religion, culture and race that connects us together in eternity.  The essence of this connection to me is to be aware of the importance of  individual personalities and to respect and honor our uniqueness. Indeed, it could even move us towards the complicated idea to become whole, harmonious and (do I dare say) even perfect?   I’m floating out of my head. The question remains to be answered.

As I sit for what seems eternity contemplating my life, the rhythmic ticking is becoming a most pleasant companion.  My life is not ticking away.  I’m living it in the exact way I was destined to live it.  There’s a whole world out there to see….so much adventure without climbing a mountain or jumping off a plane.  I just have to be in the moment and hear the silence give me the answers I seek.  The irony is not lost on me as I watch (pun intended) the silence around me and find the secret or perhaps the simple answer in a most unlikely place-my watch.  I will not tell my kids how to live.  Instead, I will live and let them watch me.  I will be…..Just Be whatever it is that I am with whatever I have and realize that that is enough to be happy.

Honey, that’s just life!  

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34 thoughts on “The Landscape of my Life

  1. I agree! Children will follow their parents’s example instead of their advice.
    Very eloquently written! I didn’t want to stop reading. Cant wait for your next post.

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  2. Hi Nora,
    Found myself sitting there with you hearing the silence too and contemplating like a guided imagery. It’s hard to listen to the silence as we are bombarded by other noises all the time.
    Keep listening and writing and take us on your journey.

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  3. Wow! This is written so beautifully and you truly have a gift. This is such a great reminder about the important things in life. Remember to appreciate the little things in life. They can end up being the most important ones sometimes. It’s easy to forget this. I can’t wait for your next one. So uplifting.

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  4. Nora joon, you have a beautiful eloquent way of writing and describing what the reader should vividly visualize. I enjoyed reading your blog a lot. Thank you for sharing your gift with us. Looking forward to reading more of your creations soon.
    Much love azizam.

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  5. Loved reading this delicious rendition of your thoughts. Eloquent and quite thought provoking. You inspired me to walk more, listen to silence more, and most importantly, be present at every moment. Thank you and thanks to Terry for sharing this blog with us. I’ve been wanting to start a blog for a long time, maybe this was the spark I needed.

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    1. Thank you Shahriar, I thank you most warmly for your sincere words!
      I’ve been wanting to start a blog forever and finally got the courage to do so thanks to the loving encouragement of my kids:)
      Thank you

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  6. Nora Jon
    Thank you for your explicit words beautifuly extracted from your heart and mind! Your courage in rerouting your thoughts and creating other images is indeed admiring. Your words and vivid images lead me to be there with you in my minds eye and be present with you… Thank you for this experience. I finally get to read Nora Amin’s blogs! I am so proud and excited for you. I am very much looking forward to read your future blogs!!
    Much Love

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    1. Thank you Pauline joon for your endearing words! I am truly humbled by your kindness. Love you my sweet friend:) I’m looking forward to sharing my thoughts with you all!

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  7. That was so honest! What and how we all feel Day in and day out! But knowing that we have to let go of all our fears and showing our children that we can do it! Thank you for sharing!

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  8. Nora joon,
    The last few sentences were my favorite. To live and lead by example instead of telling my kids how to live. Beautifully written.

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  9. Wow so beautifully written!! Thank you for sharing so much love and wisdom and reminding me to be present! So proud of you and love you my dear friend ❤️❤️❤️

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